Wednesday, November 17, 2010
DEAR DAD,
thx fer loving me till now..imma bad child...i don know if u still love me or not..thx fer all d happiness u gave me since i was young but now no more...thx fer always ruin my mood wen im happy...seem lyke im getting use to it every single tyme i have my happiness u will somehow ruin it...i will hide away my tears from you and show my smile or show my angry face just to cover up my sad feelings from you...Thx fer not being understanding for what i need...I appriciate that you marry to a women that understand her child lyke ALOT! I've been trying my best not to hate you and be a good daughter..But some tymes you just make me gone worst...And broke mom's heart...She didnt do anything wrong but help me gone thru alot and i've repay her by breaking her fragile heart everytyme im mad at you...Im felt sorry...Dont you how much you hurt others by hurting me dad? u hurt me u hurt mom's too..and the rest of the family..do u care? no u don..and i don think so..i've tried to get revenge but mom stop me and i DID and ALWAYS forgive you..Coz she said you are part of the family...And without hym i wouldnt be here in this werld..But i said deep inside its better fer me not to be in this werld wen i always feel sad wif no freedom...But to think again, im grateful to be living in this werld..I knew the painful and cheerful moments with the ones around me...Especially hym..But thats not the point...I tried to be want you want me to be..When i didnt do u scold me for not helping mom at all..But everytyme i did what you want you will gyve bad comments and hurt me again..But i just kept quiet..And smile...Thats all i can do.. But the one who always talk for me is mom...Thankieu dad fer everything...
Your daughter...
Labels: this is what i felt
~ Safiah ~ @ 8:31:00 PM