♥ śεçяεт øғ тңε ңεαят ♥

2011-08-10T15:49:00.002+08:00

Finally u've agreed to leave me too..

Thankyou.. I really appreciate it..

i still love you though..

But don worry even if ive move on no one can ever replace you

Md Nazeri BB

u will always be remembered

2011-08-03T21:51:00.002+08:00

Like i said, i've been treating my lyfe as a fairy tale... Where there's a happily ever after in the end of the story.. i just cant accept the reality.. Too cruel.. Lots of gossips, judging and all... They only say dont judge a book by its cover bt they them selves do it -.-" Take a look in the mirror please.. Tsk!

Fairy tales life are so called similar as reality. where there's wicth(bitch) wizards(bastards) and etc.. soo yeah frm there we learn life isnt easy. We slowly take a step forward...

Love life in fairy tale do have ups n down.. For example in Inuyasha, Kagome endure alot of thing that inuyasha dove to her.. he silently met kikyo behind Kagome's back. But still she forgive hym even though she's hurt deep inside.. it is because she understand how it feel when your true became enemies.tsk sad huh... Revenge of the death inuyasha seek.. And finally Kikyo rest in peace and both inuyasha n kagome live happily ever after.

I've been treating my love story like this. but well sometimes it kinda get over board n gotten in fight worser than ever.. haha

BUT I SWEAR ILOVEMYBOYFREND KAY BYE

SAYONARA

2011-07-19T00:07:00.002+08:00

Yesterday baby bday..

hehe a suprise party for him.. im glad he loikes it.. and it is also thx to kak abby,peot,iko,kecik and all his bros.. i cant do it alone.. hehe... aww im soo swett kn...
pictures kt fb... weee..

2011-06-26T00:49:00.002+08:00

Baby cant believe that we actually hold on this long.. haha
HAPPY ONE YEAR SAYANG
omg im just sooo happy... i love you..
much much of love frm me to you..
So as usual kite challenge sape sent msg dulu
bby typu sey die sent five min b4 midight...
speechless now!!
weeeeeeeee

Day 5

2011-06-18T00:17:00.000+08:00

im in a mess without you...

WTF! mommy been watching horror movies lately and im having sleepless night

well i still remember when i had a nightmare and we were fighting before i went to sleep.. i called love after the nightmare and he picked up.. he trying his best to comfort me even though he been annoyed by me for being afraid n wouldnt want to put down...its was memories.. a forgiver i presume.. haizz

now no late night kisses through the phones.. imiss him.. please.. you're my everything my other half bt y must u do this to me..

2011-06-16T01:05:00.001+08:00

Monday, 13 June 2011

Most horrible day of my life.he gone with the people that i didn't even know. until now,this moment i'm speechless. people with lanyard on their neck frights the shytz outta me. I just have to wait for the result.

Before that happen,we were so fine,happily together,lay on bed,hugs/cuddle,pillow fight,jokes around and fall asleep in a sudden. Everything was perfect. It was like weeks we didn't even met and that day was the i've been waiting for. No fight/argument involve maybe bit but it didn't become any worst.

Until its time he was about to sent me home. We were going down the stairs when these men came. Im out of words. He was pushed to one corner and so on.. It just upsetting to elaborate everything.

Even if he did hurt my feelings and broke my heart again and again, i still love him. No matter i tried to ignore nor hate him i will just forget the hurts and treated him as usual. I miss you baby. Im still waiting for news about you.. Sigh. Please be safe.

ILOVEYOU~

2011-06-14T00:32:00.002+08:00

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IM NOT STRONG TO FACE THIS SHYTZ

2011-06-13T20:22:00.003+08:00

Hello every one..

today was such a horrible day for me... Love was caught and it was a shocking for me as it happen right in front of my eyes... we had a great time together until this thing happen..

im trying so hard not to be sad but yeah i cant make it.. soo i just keep this thing to myself.. i told aidil and nafisah coz aidil close with baby n nafisah can be trusted.. usually i would share to someone else but nah.. its the past..

i really hope that ntg will happen... our one year is just around the corner.. and this shytz happen... im not strong to face this fucking shytz all alone... but i will try my best to fucking wait for if you were to be in there...

well... apparently my blog is not private soo most of you will know what happen... haizz...

IM NOT STRONG ENOUGH!!

2011-05-15T11:46:00.002+08:00

helo im back.. sowie for leaving blog for a month..
hmm well.. many things had happen.. when i say many means MANYY

ive been spending my days and evening with boyfy ever since school started..
and we gone alot of ups and downs together...
we still stick with together no matter what..
well i know its gonna be ABOUT MY BOYFY that im going to blabbering about..
soo if you get irritated please kindly DO NOT READ MY BLOG SOO TWO WORDS FOR YOU
GOOD BYE

If we have REZEKI we go Grandlink Karaoke-ing either with his frens or mine.
Karaoke till we no voice...
i kinda miss sharing my thoughts with bloggy. Ever since i started sharing everything in my mind with boyfy which is so not me i started to get use to it..
his will eventually layankn my attitude and then when i tired his turn to blabbering out at me...
and this will eventually continue everyday when im with him..

We jokes,cried mad at each other yet we will be okay again... Well this is my frist time having this long relationship with a guy apart from my frenz.
i hope we could last till our last breath..

and im currently didnt miss someone this much before. haizz... if only i have the freedom and no time limit to go home.. haizz...

i think ive blabbering enough about Nazeri and ive not eaten yet..
my tummmy is going grr grr.. bye now!

SAYONARA~

Mimpi Indah By Apit (Memories of 260610)

2011-03-30T14:35:00.000+08:00

Forever 26 please?? i love you

2011-03-01T20:38:00.002+08:00

i've been leaving my blog dead for a month plus...

well today is the first of March and tmr is my big day..
wanna know how today was spent??
in the morning went school..blah2 end at 12.30pm
coz waited for Ms Aw for half an hour until don know who tell us that the class is cancel
soo miss a bus then waited for another bus to arrive
reached tamp waited for baby walk for a while then bussed to Yishun
at first it was nice and smooth..
everything was perfectly fine...until the part i get irritated by phone calls by his frens
like come on..give me a break..you meeting him every single day
and me seldom...if i meeting him like 28 days a month then im okay if you wanna call or what
but please be understand give us time to spent time together..
he's going ns soon and i'll be lonely then...
WHY THE FUCK CANT YOU DO THAT SIMPLE THING?

give us some space please...

baby you also an idiot..go pick up the calls for what..
you said you wanted to spent tyme with me but you also answering their calls
it really really really pissed me off...
and you blame me for making trouble with you
pfft...I JUST HAD ENOUGH LAA... haizz...

give me sometime alone..

my birthday is tmr and this is what i get from you...pfft~

2011-01-17T22:51:00.002+08:00

its monday..and my schol start at 11am...
and it end at 4.40pm today

bored plus interesting stuff going on during lesson coz of kecho classmates
they awesome i tell you..haha
well...im bored ryte now...have no idea on what to blog actually
since i don want this bloggy to be dead i post something...
haha...err...hmmm...im sleepy...

SAYONARA~

2011-01-13T20:41:00.003+08:00

today the forth day of school...
haha..let start from telling from ferst day

day 1:

went to school feeling akward as i feel lyke im the ony one wearing that blouse
haha..luckily theres a few of them wearing it..hehe so go to school wif martin..
he was such a great companion...
since we in the diff course our lunch tyme were diff
so ferst day i was alone..trust me..
no one actually there but i try making frens with some..
and it ended with boredom and bussed n trained home with Martin

day 2:

lyke day one go school with martin..he was such a good companion and always have topic to start convo..haha always make me laugh early in the morning..walk to my class...since i've known most of them during the ferst day of school...im planning to stick with them..trust me...they were frenly..cool huh..i've found one kpop fan and also otaku same as me...she was AWESOME...
still alone during lunch but at some point of time saw my classmate n decided to go with them..
till end of the day exchange num and soo on...

day 3:

we had an inter school match...school of food science, school of business, school of engineering and school of EIT VS each other...our school shout were the loudest...i lyke...thats went our bond become closer...haha is was soo much fun..now my class doesnt semm soo boring anymore...the teachers are not bad too...wee...im loving it...its true...after a while u will be getting use to it..haha

day 4 which is today:

late for class...thx amirah for waiting for me...hehhe...soo rush to class...start lesson blah2 n went for the talk and blah blah blah again...and the fun thing is seri me n amirah keep on making fun it...seri interested in the police man..not so laa but still hahha..everything we done will make us burst out laughing...and oh i have new gf casandra and doesnt mean i forget bout my old gf aite..haha..talking bout old gfs..hmm..bring me down man...even mom also said...now u know who's ur real frens and who's not..but..haha im stubborn la kn..tk nk dgr ckp org tua...haiyaa just forget it laa...its the past..lyfe must move on..hahaha

and baby too have been there for me sometymes...coz i don wanna burden hym enymore...im planning to keep some prob to myself...and he also said that i becoming bechok since i enter ITE..haha wad to do..my classmate influence me to be talkative and loud...hahah

tmr will be having P.E...haha amirah waiting for me again..i love it..hope im not late again..and something also happen recently..i lost some thing precious..but i just have to accept it

SAYONARA

2011-01-08T04:09:00.002+08:00

its 4.08am and im still awake
syg put down already..and baby piss me off
yelah ex die bagy die sweater per
lantak laaa...bangge la dapat sweater..
WADEVER!!!
meetring syg again later give her mp3
as i finished downloading songs for her
act cute kn die...hahahaha nk manje2...hahah
tkpe da biase la kn...
da mcm obvious kn aku jealous...
pompan mane sak tk jelez klo dgr gytu...
klo jantan ngan jantan kasi tkpe jugak kn...
pape laa...suke aty laa...

thx fer the tears in the middle of the night...
thank you very much

SAYONARA

2011-01-07T13:00:00.002+08:00

hello....
my new school gonna have a hell lotz of MRs
and i think im gonna be a loner in that school
coz im unfriendly to people... :p sorry
well...sore throat killing me but now its okay already
my fever gone bit..hmm
maybe going out with aida accompany her buy stuff
err..im out of werds..hmm

sayonara

2011-01-04T20:17:00.003+08:00

didnt get to blog yesterday due to mouse dying...haha
kay well i've been wondering that if boify happy with me or not
coz the truth is im happy when his around
yesterday we had a huge fuss and im the one started it all...
he almost end everything and it was fucking hell for me
yes i was damn stubborn that tyme..lyke wtf
and today when i think bout it again and again
is he really happy with me or am i just a burden to hym??
i've hurt him too much already..
maybe he's really happy and will be fyne without me..
im the one who keeps on hurting people feeling...
its already 2011 and im still with my fucking attitude
when i think bout i just felt lyke crying my heart out
thats the only thing that i wanna do now..
seems that my 2011 sux..and i still have another 11 months to go thru all the shytz
can i fucking end my fucking lyke seriously now??
so that will be my last tyme hurting them
and no one will get hurt by me ever again...
especially all my love ones...ryte?
if i get the chance to see hym tmr i apologize everything
and start to move on

SAYONARA~

NEW YEAR CELEBRATION

2011-01-01T13:43:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!!!!!

guess wad?? i went countdown...hahahha
kay lame...jakon la kan first tyme gy countdown ngan mataer..
kesian kn aku..da 16 tapi masey anak mak ngan bapak...hehhe
ok per..cute kn tu?? hahaha
soo yesterday..gy yishun jln2 den jumpe fiko ngan kwn2 die kat tiong den trained to raffles place
dlm pkl 6 ke 7 jumpe mark aliff ramadan aidil ngan ika
kite hang out kt marina bay sand
kiwekk ramai sak..banyak gagak!!
mcm budak tk tentu arah sak jln sane jln sini
sementare tunggu firework kite gy mkn...
hahha..lapar oi..nk uat ape kn..hahha
da mkn jumpe my mom n dad kat one corner
den i say to dad that im watching fire werk wif drg
die bagy..shoik kn..haha
boify slm my dad second then aru yg lain2..
hahha..naseb tk di tanye...hhaha
gerek la kn...boyfy tk habis2 make me senyum n ketawe say..
sampai sakit peyot...huhu...hahah
the fire were awesome...baby n the rest of the guy join fun wif banglas
haha epic sia...haha
n most of all i have an awesome new year with love ones... i love it!!!
12.00am 01.01.11 will be a memorable to me...

SAYONARA

2010-12-29T21:23:00.002+08:00

i went out wif mom today...
out to bank then tamp...
then suddenly we talk bout rings coz
mom keep on blabbering bout it
soo i thought bout couple ring
and theres this one ring lyke omg its my ideal ring
its awesomely effing nice
its killing me thinking bout it!!
i swear its nice!!!
haizzz...but just forget it!!
but i want that ring!!!!!!!
I cannot forget bout it!!!
maybe ill be blabbering to boyfy!
kay should stop now!!!

SAYONARA~

2010-12-25T16:55:00.002+08:00

HOHOHO MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

its 25th people....and tmr is 26 =D
will he remember?? hahahahahahha
fake laa he wont ryte...haha
im dead bored now.....
well..ive been thinking since my dad cant afford to gyve everything i want
y not he just grant me my freedom
then i wouldnt ask for anything more..
ill find my own money well kind of find it
den have fun...isnt it great
my lyfe would at least brighten up abit
but nah he still controlling me...ive no lyfe huh...haha
dead bored.......

SAYONARA

2010-12-23T20:40:00.002+08:00

well my december getting from bad to worst...
first the attitude but im get used to it
but recently i heard unwanted news that either a lie or truth
i don know on which side to believe...
they both can be right and also wrong at the same tyme
the story line were all different..
and im just to afraid to make a move and ask people around..
coz im afraid that it'll get even worse
and now im making fuss wif boify and will atrat my attitude towards hym
it was lyke im suppose to believe hym other then the other party
but i donnoe y im trusting the other party instead..
my mind in a mess...everything messed up
why must it happening now?? fuck it!
FML!!! i hate it...lyke i said
everytyme im about to feel happiness surround me something bad will bring me down..
fuck it all up la sial!!!nbcb...had enough of this...
maybe i should just stop trusting people n move on wif my lyfe alone...
not as if break up or wad.. but everything i just kept to myself
it'll be much better that way..
no one will get hurt by me...
i don wish to hurt hym over and over again...
i've done enough to hurt hym...
i can ony hope for hys happiness....

SAYONARA

2010-12-15T12:18:00.002+08:00

starting of this month is a hard tyme for me
people's reactions remind me of my past and its frighten me...haizz...
but im here standing tall trying so hard not to fall back.

so yesterday met baby at his work place due to reasons...
along with his frens playing water at the beach
bury hym under the sand..haha much fun..but sadly i can enjoy the water...
later the whole sea red..haha
then bussed to yishun meet up with hys mom for q
while then trained home alone

then today hmm silent again..
maybe his sleeping...nemind..haha
soo going out soon...yet im hungry now..
waiting for Arnolds fried chicken to come..yummmmy

SAYONARA~

2010-12-13T12:36:00.003+08:00

well i woke up today with my mind remembering of wad happen to hym
great ryte...since then my mood gone worst
wad more that he gonna do that gonna hurt hys surroundings?
maybe i should do wad i said on my past post
let u settle everything then we contact back..
since i already know this things gonna happen again
might as well i start doing my own things too..
i do need fun too..
soo its lyke u have it ur way and im having it my way
but i didnt do it
why? becoz im think bout u.im thinking bout ur feelings.and also i love you..
but do u care? no u dont
u just fuck care everything n have it ur way..awesome isnt it..
expected u wont change baby u just won n u don want to..
u can but u don want
all ur bullshytz...up to you now..
ur fucking werds i aint trusting anymore
i gyve up!
YES I GAVE UP!
TOLD U MANY TYMES ALREADY..
UP TO U NOW!
HAPPY LA KAU NGA MEMBER KAU..
AKU PON NAK HAPPY NGAN MEMNER AKU
LAGY PN AKU DA BIASE IDOP SRG..SOO NI SUME NO HAL PADE AKU...
IM USED TO EVERYSHYTZ THATS HAPPENING TO ME!
and even if u loss me u wouldnt mind at all
coz u can get any prettier girl then me..
im just NOBODY to you..
THATS FOR SURE

SAYONARA

2010-12-12T23:53:00.003+08:00

boyfren
until when sia u wanna be lyke thiz
it may b fun 4 u bt not for me
im holding to ur werds n waited
i knew its not months or years
but for me hours seem lyke days or weeks
come on..u free now n im hoping for u to change
the past 6 months u can endure but why not u just continue doing it?
why?don't u care bout me??nah i don think so
even if im quiet u think im happy with it??
coz i don wanna be too control of you thats why i let u have your way
n this is wad i get??i called ur phone n ur fren said that u were away
interesting isnt it..wad else u wanna do?
n now u want away again for the next 2 years??
think laa come on...
aku da ckp per...jgn ikot rese..nk sgt kan...
suke kn aku merane...suke kn aku sedih..
kau hang out ngan bro aku tk pasal
asalkan kau pandai jage diri
abeh ni ar after i gaveu ur freedom...
thx ar...aku BANGGE Ar ngan kau..
have fun ar take care..kau nk buat ape skg suke hati kau..
and aku pun..ape aku nk uat suke haty aku..kau tkmo halang aku okay!
kay FAIR AND SQUARE KN

SAYONARA

2010-12-08T20:29:00.002+08:00

HEYYYYYYYYYLLLOOOOO BLOOOOGGY!!!!

ME MENDAK!
aru update lagy satu pey blog
soo tk tau nk update ape pt syny..
plus ive met hym just now..
next meet up donnoe wen..
im waiting for letter from MOE saying that ill begetting my result wen
i not ready to look for result but im well prepared for the worst i guess..hahah
kay i shall stop nonsening here

SAYONARA

2010-12-07T12:44:00.001+08:00

PRANGAI LELAKI SUME SAME!
sape2 terase sorry..
aku gyve up..
ingat kn ade org leh buktikn aku salah
tapi lame2 drg tetap same jugak...
mcm soyal...
AKU GYVE UP!!!!!

2010-12-06T22:30:00.002+08:00

hihihihihihihihi
im so IMPRESSED that for the past few days you can changed
u don seem to care bout me anymore..marvelous
im soooo fucking happy bout it
I HAD ENOUGH OF ALL THE BULLSHYTZZ NOW!
STOP STMF WITH ME AITE..
AINT TRUSTING BULLSHYTS FROM U NYMORE
TIRED OF IT...
JADY LA MCM BISCUIT SLALU KAY...

SAYONARA

2010-12-05T20:08:00.002+08:00

im sick once agaen...
aww pity me ok..haha
hmm...i should get my butt of the house before my fever going on off
haizz....babies where are u..??? i need u guys leh..
my phone becoming soo silent and i don lyke it..
can i make frenz wif people?? im dying of boredom here..
my num..ask me personally..haha..
im planning on going somewhere wif galfies but they were all bz..haizz..
don bother asking me about HYM=MIA..
ehhehehehe...soo tmr Monday..
rotting at home again i guess..
on fon or off or divert to house fon??
hmm.. i guess off and people contact me thru fb aite...
HELL who need guys to cheer me up..im standing on my own...
ive been in that situation and i can do it again...haha
bobal mcm phm sia safiah..haha
ala drg ade tau tkde tetap idop per?? tk mati per?
btl tk? asalkn tk de planning nk bunuh diri sdh la...
but thinking back,suicide may be a good way of saying goodbye..hahaha
agree? yes? no? kay fyne u decide
i nk patah balik no feeling girl boleh??
hhaa..bobal sume main hembus jek tk pk psl org?
tapi i tk cruel..tk pe la...i nk MIA jugak la..hehe
mcm fun gytu eh MIA MIA..hehe..

SAYONARA

2010-12-04T14:28:00.002+08:00

my fever gone but i still having sore throat..
hmm...peole celebrating their birthdays..
i find it fun celebrating with love ones..
but in three more months..wee
haha..well i don think im celebrating
haha..hope ppl would forget my birthday..hehe
soo basically birthdays will have
cake presents party games and killing the birthday kid..
the reason i hate celebrating becoz im afraid of kena bash..haha
even girls kena but their gfs..haizz...
haha not gonna think bout birthdays...
soo gonna watch bleach now...

SAYONARA

2010-12-03T18:14:00.003+08:00

i was hoping i could see hym today
coz i wanna spent my tyme at least an hour
soo i can see hys happy face in front of me
but no..we didnt meet n i continuously spent tyme wif nana

"i tot im hys num one
i tot im always hys first in his lyfe
i tot he knew all my feeling without even im showing
i tot he wont believe my lies
and i tot he could willing to do anything for me
but i was wrong
im not hys num one
im not the 1st in hys lyfe
he didnt even care
he believes everything
and its because i do things that break others heart just to spent freaking tyme with hym"

come on saf get the fact he dont need you anymore
just face it...u can survive ryte..u used to be lyke this
plz gyve me tyme to be alone...
im happy to at least have been spending tyme wif u
for at least the past few months and ignore my frens
coz i tot u will do the same wen ur free
but i was wrong and totally wrong
so dont scold me if my frens are now 1st in my lyfe
im sorry and hope u understand
if u feel bad and its already too late syg...
if u sorry ive forgave you
but as u know sorry wont cure anything ryte...
and it also wont bring back tyme
if ur reading this then give me tyme..
don call or msg me..i had enough for the pass 3 days n nights

SAYONARA

2010-12-03T12:52:00.003+08:00

the watch had been taken out
im glad..n im soo happy for hym
and it seems that ive been preparing for the worst
i should be ready but yet im not..
i should just take a step back now...seriously now..
plz safiah ur strong i know u can fucking do it..
show ur smile...i think im going MIA from him now..
hope he will have so much fun with them..
i think ive become a good liar though
and im happy bout that..
i don wanna think anymore...just fuck it all...
wad ever happen i don wanna noe..
im going back to the lonely safiah
nemind i can survive...and i will i hope
enough of all the tears i cried for the past two nights and days..
but sadly i just cant..don worry bout me ill be just fyne

SAYONARA

2010-12-02T15:50:00.003+08:00

tmr's the day where he will be a totally free man
im proud that for the passed 6th month he endure everything
and now im here worrying and also preparing for the worst
worry becoz he might go bck to his past
and preparing for the future which i don wish to happen
the thoughts of negative and positive are fighting one another
and it seems that negative thoughts are wining
i just hope he wont change for the worst
lately he's been bz with stuff
i understand but usually he will forcing hymself talking to me even he was tired
but the past few days was...idk...im speechless
i was planning to let hym settle everything he was facing and then we will be contacting back
i did tell hym yesterday with unwillingness heart and watery eyes
and i understood that he needs me..but i cant take it with his MIA
since his gonna be free...he can do anything that he want..
ill be here and listen all the fun things... =')
if that makes hym happy then im happy for hym

SAYONARA

2010-12-01T16:46:00.003+08:00

HEEEEELLLLLOOOOO DEEECCCEEEMMMBBEEERRR!!!!

WELL my december greeted me wif a high fever
cool ryte! i know!
wanna rest but i just cant..waited for hys calls..
till now not called yet...his bz i know n he's gonna be alright
soo my temp was not that high 38.6..not that ryte..
ermm soo..i guess im out of werds here...

sayonara

2010-11-25T15:38:00.002+08:00

soo currently its 25 today...
a HUGE let me repeat that A HUGE misunderstanding happens just now.
it was lyke Fudge...haizz...everything is in a mess now..
i've deleted this blog a moment ago but i cant afford to lost the memories i have with
SHAMELESS AND SYGZZ..
but i just activate this blog again..
can you imagine wif a small matter can lead to a huge enormous arguments?
lol..yeah thats wad ive always been through..and its lyke fudge
haizz...cant wait fer tmr...I LOVING IT!
KAY BYE...THIS BLOG WILL SOMETYME BE DEAD...SOO JUST TALK ON MT TAGBOX..

sayonara

2010-11-17T20:31:00.002+08:00

DEAR DAD,

thx fer loving me till now..imma bad child...i don know if u still love me or not..thx fer all d happiness u gave me since i was young but now no more...thx fer always ruin my mood wen im happy...seem lyke im getting use to it every single tyme i have my happiness u will somehow ruin it...i will hide away my tears from you and show my smile or show my angry face just to cover up my sad feelings from you...Thx fer not being understanding for what i need...I appriciate that you marry to a women that understand her child lyke ALOT! I've been trying my best not to hate you and be a good daughter..But some tymes you just make me gone worst...And broke mom's heart...She didnt do anything wrong but help me gone thru alot and i've repay her by breaking her fragile heart everytyme im mad at you...Im felt sorry...Dont you how much you hurt others by hurting me dad? u hurt me u hurt mom's too..and the rest of the family..do u care? no u don..and i don think so..i've tried to get revenge but mom stop me and i DID and ALWAYS forgive you..Coz she said you are part of the family...And without hym i wouldnt be here in this werld..But i said deep inside its better fer me not to be in this werld wen i always feel sad wif no freedom...But to think again, im grateful to be living in this werld..I knew the painful and cheerful moments with the ones around me...Especially hym..But thats not the point...I tried to be want you want me to be..When i didnt do u scold me for not helping mom at all..But everytyme i did what you want you will gyve bad comments and hurt me again..But i just kept quiet..And smile...Thats all i can do.. But the one who always talk for me is mom...Thankieu dad fer everything...

Your daughter...

2010-11-08T19:51:00.002+08:00

it had been a long tyme since im phototaking myself..
i kept on saying tmr and the day after and the day after that
haha..i cant seem to find the right tyme and my mood keep on changing
today was not a good day for me..i don know y soo dont ask =)
soo just now met angela and suriani to take things then off to tamp ALONE
yes alone..it was AWESOME =.=" NOT!!
kay walk2 den ntg interest my eyes den went home..
till here

SAYONARA~

26 till the end

2010-11-06T17:46:00.002+08:00

WARNING:
this post is going to be everything bout boify
yes im pathetic i know..hate it kindly leave okay!

ever since i broke up with my previous ex(s)
im moving on with ntg..
frens are there bt my heart still empty
there are seriously there up until now...
until i met hym..
well actually im planing that im not going to have someone for that mean tyme
but i have no reasons why im in love with hym..
the feeling came just lyke that..
we've been through alot..
i am happy sad angry and all kind of feelings with/towards hym
wounded heart for me will heal by itself as tyme goes by..
therefore i left it bleeding until it heal on its own
every moment i spent with hym will lyke a medication to my heart
i never felt this kind of love before..hell yeah..
he showed me everything..love care concern..tell me he loves me everything sec..
and ill get irritated..=) but the point is..at least i know his being honest that all
even though i have no freedom.. he will be the one that will cheer me up..
i've hurt hym alot..and i don tend to hurt hym further..
but at tymes i do feel that im a burden to hym..
and i think its better for hym to just go on with his lyfe without me
but he strongly disagree about it..
its been 4 month plus we together..
we do have up and down..but yet we normal again
i do miss hym every tyme we're apart..
but we will make the bestest memories every tyme we meet..
i guess thats enouugh on blabbering bout hym..

~SAYONARA~

2010-10-20T18:26:00.002+08:00

hi people....
quite some tymes that i didnt blog..
i have noooo ideeaaa wad to blog about
yesterday was a nightmare..
jokes lead to serious fight den breakup ended up with together again..
omg..it was aloong fucking long long day..haizz
but now the fight end..thank god!
soo currently addicted yo Facebook,Tagged and twitter...
soo i guess thats all

SAYONARA!~

2010-10-14T01:16:00.000+08:00

hihi =)

im waiting fer pglt to missed call me...

so slow sia he eat..hmph! well im bored actually..

im sleepy but cant slp..ive been having mood swing lately..

this tyme the worst ever! i shld be controlling my mood swing if not ill die =)

kay soo many things happen lately..

RS for me kinda ok..fight here n there and bck together again..

its normal ryte ... haha he just call me..

soo slow...hehe..confrence again tonight!

wif ika n arul..many dramatic scene happening...

hmm.... 12 more days to meet up.soo slow....

haizzz...shutting down com now

SAYONARA~

2010-10-08T13:03:00.000+08:00

hi bloggy ...

sowie for being MIA for quite some times even though ive been switching my computer on the whole week during examination ^.^ sowie for ignoring u..

well people...ive ended my NLEVEL EXAMS..HUAHUAHUA

but sadly i have to wait 4th nov for my DNT OLEVEL exam..haiz..

while people are busying enjoying their freedom and have all the romantic time wif their partners

or find a job for money and as for me i will be sitting at home to take care of my grand dad...

yeah..nah.but ive taken to be free on every 26th..thats wen i can go out to take some fresh..soo tit tot me

and ouh i will bring hym along ryte...soo i could spent tyme with sygzz and hym at the same tyme and day aite...

sowie but its the ony day i can spent tyme with all of you..hope u guys understand..=)

willi be ending my secondary lyfe just lyke that or?? i go sec 5??

hmm..whatever it is i hoping for sec 5 =) i guess

hehe..i wanna enjoy...ive plan many thing wen my Ns are finish..

but nemind...suffer now soo wen it happen in the future i can handle it =)

but i seriously need a job..i need money..haizz...

~SAYONARA~

2010-09-19T13:05:00.000+08:00

I had fun the past two days...

jln raye was fun wif classmates...

photo at my Fb hehe...

start n friday...after meeting love proceed to get ready for jln raye

soo aida reached my house first and waited fer me to get ready..

while mark n irfhan are otw to my house..weee...

den meet up with the rest..doo the four of us first house is adam..

Den to Andiq...den Diana after that raudah last Anna

i didnt tag along further as its alreadyu too late..

soo since the last house is at semei i took 17 bussed home alone...

den on Saturday also went out

this tyme with love and his fam..

haha but before that my mom bullied him to fetch me at my house..

soo he raye at my house first...muahaha...he soo nervous until

he just smile and ans but by bit wad was being ask...

muahaha...while im over there kept on laughing non stop...

next was his house...ive met his parent before soo i kinda okay with it

next we went out wif his parent to his aunts house at woodland..

his aunts was not bad at all...den we both bussed to tamp for his last aunt house...

i played wif her cats...soo adorable...den we sent his grandma home soo stay there for a while.

tyme was not enough for me to go to Mark Open house...Sowie mark...den me and hym trained home...

we had super fun together during the jalan raye...

SHAMELESS MUCH MISSED :(

2010-09-14T16:35:00.001+08:00

This post gonna be about Shameless members.. we have been in the same class for 2 years...hope will be meeting u guys next year too..^.^...I really really miss all the funtyme we had...studying at angela house..pic taking wif one another..jokes around lyke there's no tomorrow...Now that Ns are continuing on October, lets get prepare aite....i really miss you all

ANGELA:

hi angel...we in the same class for two years

but we ony close for months..i miss you =(

lets hang out again like we used to okay..

but got ppl hate me lioa how?? haizz...

stay happy always hor..

Amelia:

hi crazy partner...we close for two years hor..

but now u abandon me..sadd...nemind we still talk to each other

thats okay wif me..=)

thx for always cheering me up hor..

don get mad for no reason kay..

Olive:

Hi Queen...u same with angela..

we close for months =)

let keep on going continuing knowing eachother

stay happy aite...

Sabrina:

hey Ex wife...we been knowing each other since sec 1

but we're close wen we were sec four..

so long huh? haha..now u not quiet anymore..

talk more hor...stay cute always kay

Martin:

Hey Otaku Brother...thx fer always giving me changce to bullied u in class..

u such a good bro..but now u sit far away..cant bully already..

all the anime talks was great..at least we have something to talk about in our own world ryte..

haha..stay cool always aite

Nam:

Hello Dad..u such a bad dad...ignore me somemore in class..IDIOT

teach me korean language more okay...

DAEJ:

err..well..hmm..Everything was okay at the begining of the year

or i might say mid of last year...we've been close...but now seem different

idk wad i do but im sowie if i did something that make u angry...

i really miss the moment back then...wen we were having all the laughter together..

this may be our last year..lets get together as a family again can??

plz...lets be frens again...

2010-09-14T12:40:00.001+08:00

HiHiHiHiHiHiHi

ok im bored...

Love such a pig... sleep ony -.-"

i wanna go out...bored ttm...

phone bill high my god..

den i use my raya money help to pay

hmm...ppl are all schooling and im at home rotting =(

need take care of grand dad...pity him...

ppl im bored..

K BYE!!

2010-09-11T16:13:00.000+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYE TO ALL MUSLIMS AND NON MUSLIMS =)

2nd day already...alot collections ppl??

well im not..ive been stuck at home two days straight

need take care or granddad soo yeah..hmmm

i wanna try out my new heels..haizz..n i want collection..

gfz if i go ur house make sure u gyve me lotsa money..muahaha

haizz...im bored wanna go out...

SAYONARA ALL

2010-09-09T19:31:00.000+08:00

i decided to switch off my phone after ending my talks with cloud

i donnoe why but i just feel lyke it

im upset but i donnoe y...nonsense isnt it...

N lvl are on break till 4 oct =(

raya start tmr nnnnnnnnnn im soo not into it

i will be just going out frenz thiz year..

few collections this year for me...

damn i serious shyt need money...

hmmm...i shall stop now..

sayonara

2010-09-05T12:38:00.000+08:00

its already september

soo fast weee....

tmr my N start OMG scary...

yesterday meet cloud at city hall

then proceed to geylang meet with tyty feela and all

i had fun..maybe tmr go out again..wee...

i felt pity for one girl (INSERT NAME)..

haizz...seriously i really really felt pity for her..

showing off soo not my type..but ill get things straight too her

making me jealous wont work babe trust me..

i have no tyme for ur nonsense.okay girl..

and bcoz of that u making me laugh my ass out and brighten up my nyte...

haha..argument end peacefully..thx to that gerl...hey bitch thx alot aite... ;)

soo today ill be rotting at home..cant wait for tmr break fast together

not Ns..haizz...i still heve not study..weee....thats me

till here then..may be ill update after my Ns or during some great occasion during Hari Raya

SAYONARA

2010-08-29T16:55:00.000+08:00

400th post =)

and soo ive not been updating my blog for quite some tymes...

well lyke i said in fb i cant find the reason why ive been crying the past few days..

im soo upset yet i donnoe wad thing im upset about...

Newboyz songs ive been playing ever since remind me of my past rs..

its sux..ive moved onn but im just scare ill get hurt again...

i cant even smile now...WHY!!!

haizz...nemind let me just keep my sadness from love..

i don want hym to feel wad i feel...let it be me who always get the hurtz

maybe i cant hide from gfz but i will try my very best to hide from bf =)

im bad as usual... ;)

Ns are coming haha..and i spend all my freaking tyme on fb, fon calls n songs

i wish i can cry with no one stopping me...i need hugs ='(

SAYONARA

2010-08-26T12:03:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 2ND!wee~

didnt go school today..but will be attending remedial soon

my hair a little bit longer now yes ar...happy =)

16th day of fasting 14 more days to go...=)

and also N level 10 more days..so fast

pray hard..so far i any knew i past my math..thats kinda okay for me..

i can passed phy for 1 bloody mark..err..

chem i get low uper low as i was expected hehe

im speechless now

SAYONARA

HAD FUN TOGETHER

2010-08-22T03:32:00.000+08:00

hihi....

its 3.18 am n im still wide awake =)

wen out wif tyty nana fysha n boify to break fast

eventually...forget it...

soo myt up boify at Paya Lebar den headed to Teh Tarik to myt wif the rest

hee..the pic..=)haizz my hair center parting.... z.z

nemind just ignore it and importantly i had fun today

den me n boify wen to PRP..the moon was bright i love it!

den sit under the moon and about 10.45 proceed home =)

i was late by 15 mins but mom n dad didnt scold hee....

just put down the phone wif nana akehno...

she soo care bout me..haha soo sweet of her to msg me whether ive reached home or not??

haha...cute kn?? love you hun!

okay now serious shit i cant sleep...hmph!

boyfy sleeping lyke piglet...

ask me wake hym up at 3am yet he continue asleep..

bt i know he did not..such a big fat liar -.-"

hmm...i don noe wad to write...

will be rotting today...

Prelims are officially over but N's are around the corner..

haizz... -.-"

cant sleep bored!!!!

SAYONARA

2010-08-21T11:02:00.000+08:00

hihi

i survive throughout the night staying up till 4 am to eat

im staying up alone for the first tyme without phone calls weee~

im happy bout this little thing hehe

the late night i was just watching anime..K-on,High School Of The Dead n Maid-sama

i cant sleep last nyte..thinking too much =(

yeeah im quite upset about things..haizz..

but then i shut my eyes at five till nine..

four hours of sleep..not bad...

quite long.. =)

SAYONARA~

2010-08-18T01:13:00.000+08:00

first of all thankieu aida fer the BIG BIG BABY TAZ MUCH LOVE

btw don be soo sad about wad had happen to you recently aite

u still have us...we love you

come on don look down on urself

ive been in ur place..but i know one day u'll get the one better then any of ur ex

trust me...
i will be having science papers today

physic n chem not so my fav..

supposedly sleep by now

yet im still awake coz i knew to revise all the fomula.. -.-"

i guess i will sleep soon

imishyou =(

nyte nyte readers..

SAYONARA

2010-08-15T23:27:00.000+08:00

hi ignore below post..

too emotional..

well my prelim continues tmr

haha did not study for the whole day...
5th of fasting 25 days to go...=/

haizz....ppl keep on saying my cravings =(

i really want it sooo bad...

ramli burger kebab n importantly peach tea =(

buy for me at bazaa cn??

i ~~hate~~ you love!! =)
well SAYONARA

2010-08-14T16:52:00.002+08:00

im greatful to have a mother that understands me very very well

unlike you who does not even tend to understand wad i need

i understand that we all are under financial needs but at least give me some room to have fun

i seldom go out with my friends and i always sit at home lyke one children with no lyfe

i have no freedom all this 16 years of living... y cant u just control on my timing??

people at my age are having fun out there in the open area while im here stuck

and don't know anything about the world outside...isnt that fascinating for u to hear

giving your last minute permission i don think i have the mood to go...

and some more you want me to know everything..what do expect me to be?
maybe relative said im big enough to do all the chores but i also want to feel what freedom is lyke

people may see my lyfe are perfect and full of love

but do they really know the truth?

lyfe isnt great for me most of the tyme
but having A MOTHER LOVE and ~~boify~~ love thats enough for me

i guess...

you just don know anything about me!

SAYONARA!

2010-08-13T20:32:00.000+08:00

hihi

today ss paper make me laugh..

n idk y..hehe

Friday the 13 was such a disaster....

wont dare to elaborate here...

make me even upset =(

idk if u still really bother bout me though??

haha well i wont care much anyway weeeee~

u have ur lyfe n i have myne...

its ended long tyme ago ..

soo happy living...weeee~

SAYONARA

2010-08-11T05:20:00.000+08:00

reading fatehah blog make me feel so jealous =(

they went out without mee =(

i wanna study too u know..

anybody interested in study SS or eng for revision??

im lack of info here...haizz...well...

thats me..prelim starts tmr...n im here happily blogging early in the morning..

no one gonna read after all...

well its 5.17 now..haha..

soon i gotta get ready for school...

and also fasting plus PE today zzzz...

gtg now..

SAYONARA~

2010-08-10T21:17:00.000+08:00

yesterday fireworkz was awesome!!!

met love for awhile...he was wif his frens n im wif fam

dad didnt know anything bout us =)

i was hoping to watch together wif hym but he was going everywhere

but at least we did met for awhile =)

today didnt went out

just stay at home...i wanna study Ss yet ss study me =)

i fell asleep..haizz..

prelims two days ahead DIE!!

im planning on buy camera wif good quality yet the price is low...

can i find it some where??

guess ill have to think after my N n while ive start working =)

wad a PS day...

2010-08-08T01:56:00.001+08:00

hihi...

i had fun today or should i say yesterday!!

well i know its already late night and im here blogging

well actually im sleepy but im waiting for one pantat to call yet until

now she didnt thx ehk...

com soo suck...made me sleep again and again just to make it seriously workk

but still it slow fudge...ouhya soo well today supposely to watch movie wif naz n frens

but ended up the plan was canceled instead of watching movie we when KKH

to visit his fren that just gave birth to a bbyG...CONGRATULATIONS!!

after waiting for his fren get discharged we walk from KKH to Plaza Sing..

it quite long journey since we are going there by foot...

but the kecho of them make the journey fun!

from there we walk to Orchard Rd...den trained to Yishun..

before that Naz persuade me go yishun but i heard tissue

it was soo freakingly memalukn..OMFG!!

i try to endure it..but i cant see the face of his fren..

he saw me he will smile n make me feel soo ashame...err..i hate hym =[

at about seven plus trained back alone...

it was soo tiring..haizz....

it will be a long period of tyme for the next meeting due to examinations =(

well im sleepy now..but i just online MSN haha...see who online den of to bed..

SAYONARA~!

2010-08-05T21:37:00.000+08:00

hi bloggy...

im soooo lazy today...muahaha

my mood getting bad to worse...

maybe im the one that does not understand you

or are you the one that cant get on my expectation?

fudge la...u must be hating me by now ryte?

come on who will stand the attitude of myne...

keep on making ppl pissed off..Scold ppl for ntg...

haizz...~~i don think im good enough for you~~

hell yeah im hurt..but ill just let it be aite...

SAYONARA ;')

2010-08-01T22:05:00.000+08:00

am gonna be addicted to malay novels =)

today had been a cold day..im freezing brrrr

tmr school errr..then N lvl coming nearer..

fireworkz yesterday cool...had fun watching it...

and of coz legs hurt due to high heels..fudge

missing someone badly...haizz..

y am i being soo sad??? haha random siaa..

SAYONARA

2010-07-31T15:09:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Father..May Allah longer ur age...ILOVEYOUDADDY

going jemputan later at Beach Rd..saw me sey hi..haha

i feel soo uneasy suddenly...idk bt i just felt it something bad might happen

haizz..many things going through my mind..errr...why!!!

examz are near..why must everytyme exams are near feelings will just end up not okay for me....

FML!!!!After receiving the the inbox msg from ex i felt that its some kind of true..

haizz i think that testing people is bad for me..yes me...i cant accept wad will happen after that

wad nonsense am i?? haizz..fon been silent..idk if his aslp or ...haizz..

SAFIAH WAD THE FUDGE IS WRONG WITH YOU..haizz...

going out soon

SAYONARA

2010-07-30T15:16:00.000+08:00

ki kwang baby

my dear nazihah..im sowie to say that hys my baby..lyke hmm i knew hym first soo yeah..shoo..hahahhas

school was fun..alot confession been made...lyke me and nazihah we been fighting again and again..hehe

exams around the corner...wee..~

Naz baby be jeaqlous aiteaite...muahahahaha

2010-07-29T23:26:00.002+08:00

doing DNT now...

im tired OMG plus sleepy..

wish to sleep now..if not ill forget everything bout DNT

FRIDAY TMR!!!!! yeah!!! weekends!

OTP now wif Naz baby.. =)

deal officially off... weee~

11.20pm

ive finished my DNT i guess..for now..still have a long long way to go

contextual and all..haizz....tired leh..off to sleep now..

yerp now..

still thinking should i continue my NPCC or not?

hmm...well cant think well now..

I WANT PEACH TEA

SAYONARA!

2010-07-28T22:33:00.001+08:00

some secrets are mend to keep as it was very dangerous if it were to just say openly without looking

its been years of frenship =)..yet u don know me...im a forgiver and also forgetful person..i know ive been mad with you so many tymes...and yes maybe its Karma lyke u said =)..i accepted it..don feel so bad about urself...

maybe its true sorry no cure but hey lyke i said..i'll forgive n forget..this is what happen in friendship..everybody will stand for their ryte until they really really know the truth...Frustration will control ur tongue and not ur brain.. =) and i understand how does it feel...ive been repeatedly doing that stupid mistake in my lyfe..humans are not perfect..everyone makes mistake...don worry im fyne...don feel soo bad about urself aite.we are friends..not just freinds but bestfriends or for me is more..u lyke a sister...trust me siblings forgive each other soo thats how i feel for it...don worry too much...u know who u are..

just end called wif Naz.Finally we had a long convo =) He wanna slp nw..aww..

we had a deal...well such cruel deal but have to endure it =')

let see who wins... wee~

doing chemistry notes now...must be prepared for N.. scarry~~~

end now..

SAYONARA

2010-07-27T23:03:00.000+08:00

Meeting you was fate

Becoming your friend was my choice

But falling in love was beyond my control

school as per normal... my legs gone from bad to worse.. its hurt every movement ive made

and some more i kept on accidentally hit on it..haizz...after school wen to EP den bump into aida's mom

thx ck for the treat..den we kept on laughing about their family jokes hehe...while the other went to banquet for lunch..den slack at Fatehah crib to kill tyme..around 5 bussed to tamp meet Naz n his fren.

slack for a while ony... -.-"

kay now lately i been dirtying my blog...should stop due to the talk in school haha

n my stomach is joining gang with my leg...damn hurt laa...haizz.. i wana skip school cn??

haizzz

SAYONARA

2010-07-26T23:02:00.000+08:00

i damn pissed today..fudge!

firstly my new shoes are killing me...

i have blister on both legs...

next thing wen i came into the class

let me tell YOU something!

STOP GIVING ME FUCKING FACE OF URS!

NBCB!WADS THE MATTER WITH YOU

WHAT DID I DO UNTIL U FUCKING HATE ME SOOO FUCKING MUCH?

IS IT BECOZ LAST TYME I STARE AT UR FRENZ AND U UNHAPPY WITH IT??

DEN IM SOWIE ABOUT IT AITE..

LETS JUST FORGET THE PAST CAN WE??OMG!

lastly..to my so called sis...thx ehk!!

u are the most fucking bitch ever...u want revenge is it??

den u already have..still not happy ar?

bagos la kn kau da delete aku pt fb pas tu spread psl aku..thx la byk2...

kau tentu tau aku per..aku tk kn uat pape kt kau..

beh asl kau kecot ehk??igt ar..aku tkkn bls tapi org lain tetap dendam pat kau la kimak!

palbutz! haizz...

soo much to call lyfe!

baby aslp i guess...must be tired huh after ur long day!

HAPPY FIRST BTW!!~ ;)

shall stop here..

SAYONARA~

2010-07-25T18:41:00.002+08:00

HHHHeeeeeeelllllllllllllllooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!~

im dead bored now..nobody entertaining me =(

phone being so silent nowadays..feel lyke throwing it away!

haiyaa im talking crap here... uploading pic here is killing me man...err..so slow!!!

connection keep on MIA and its sooo fucking irritating

i've been facing the com for like 5hrs+ and i kinda don know wad to do now.

ouhya todays date is 25 and soon gona be 26 :)

and tmr monday school day

wahh sian~soon gona be my prelims and N level Examination

and im here still slacking while others are preparing..

ill end my crap here..

SAYONARA

come to an end

2010-07-24T20:20:00.005+08:00

heyhey
just came back from "study" date wif nana
at Woodland =)
kay hmm meet up at 2.30+pm
den took bus 168..half way there
bus broke down..tk sedih per
haha...den get free ride on second bus.
reach wdlnd go library study for a while den go mkn at banquet
it was such a happy day...
den around 6 ++ took bus home...

----------------------------------------------

i don think u know me yet
i guess i have no ryte to stop u anymore
even if i tried soo hard to stop u
u cant even bother to try stop doing it
im soo tired..i gave up..i know i shouldnt give up easily
but wads the point if u don even bother??
its all up to you now...
ill just listen to you n agree for now..
if you really love me then prove it..
im sick n tired of all this...
contact me if you done everything that pleases you okay!
im giving all the tyme you want

SAYONARA~

2010-07-22T23:50:00.002+08:00

okay since i have my com inside my room now
i can lyke blog in the middle of the night
my room is now frigging messy...
papers fly all over the place..
it seems that i cant even concentrate on a single thing i do..
i need to catch up on some missing infos..
OMG!!! im sleepy now.. tireeeeeeeeeeeeeed
can i die??
inuyasha asleep...no one accompany me
its almost midnight..i think ill continue studying on weekends...
ouh yeah tmr my fav num/date.. 23!!
hehe..off bed now..
but before that need clean up my mess .ishhhhhhhhhhhhh
haizzz

2010-07-22T22:18:00.002+08:00

hihi..
im sleepy now.yet i have to study for my geog test tmr..ryte??
okay...it is now 10.18pm after this ill be studying
seems my SHAMELESS had start revising already
and now its my turn i guess..
school was okay..late again today..
raining lioa..
and also ive been waiting for someone miss called
but i think he's kena shoot by now.. -.-"
soo im hear dying of missingess? such word?
haha..shall continue my stupidity tmr..

SAONARA!

2010-07-21T18:59:00.003+08:00

COUNTING DOWN~ 5 MORE DAYS

school was perfectly awesome today..
had my laughter back with SHAMELESS
fire drill sux ttm errr
the weather so hot! its lyke
OMG..im tanned now =(
hmmm after school met nana at bedok inter n slack at skate park
picture taking and laugh lyke an idiot hehe
we should spent tyme more hor... next tyme we all including tyty
dead bored now...

sing this for me love =)

SAYONARA

2010-07-20T22:10:00.003+08:00

sometyme in lyfe we need to be strong enough to let go
people change & its up to us to accept them or leave them
for now i just live my lyfe the way it is
care to the one who need me
ignore those who are just hating me
its okay if they need me for awhile
and then throw me after having what they want
ppl come and go
its up to them to remember our kindness
we cannot expect them to remember us all the tyme ryte?
but for me all these fucking things im use to it
lyke come on..a loner always a loner
everything that a loner do is always wrong.
even if its ryte ppl will ignore and saw wad we did all wrongs
isnt ppl around us are damn fucking cool
theres no different
everything go in a circle lyke karma
what goes around comes around
its either fast or slow
i had enough of this
im tired of all this nonsense...

but so far im blessed of having my own inuyasha by my side =)
thankieu for ur concern bout me even sometyme u pissed me off -.-
importantly ILOVEYOU!

~ SAYONARA ~

2010-07-19T20:47:00.003+08:00

im sick and tired of crying endlessly
seem that i should agree with my decision along tyme ago
to stay away from u guys and stand on my own
but becoz we have been frenz for years..
and yeah u have been patience with my attitude
so i guess u are now pissed off and wanted me to change
but sadly i am who i am
i guess i should just stay away from you guys as
im just a burden to all of you
ill be moving on my own ways from u guys for now..
i now u will be happy with it
as u have ur own bestfrenz.
im just nobody...
i knew it all along..
no need deny...i feel it okay...
wadever it i sim okay with ppl decision..
so yeah HAVE FUN WIF UR LYFE..
I WONT BE BUSY WITH YOU GUYS NOW..
TAKE CARE YALL
COZ IM USED TO BE ALONE FROM TYME TO TYME
AND I KNOW I CAN SURVIVE ABOUT IT

SAYONARA!~

2010-07-18T14:21:00.002+08:00

i've been thinking a lot lately
but something just cant ease my mind not a bit
sowie but i just cant forget it..
wad u told seem all true
i think maybe u should just listen to ur parents
heaven is on mom's feet remember that.
i don want this relationship to end just lyke that too
i just got you and losing you will just making me suffer even worse
but seems that non of them lyke me
can see that ur mom love her and want her be ur future
maybe some lies u tell me to help me peace my mind
but sowie it does not work a thing
even if u ask me am i ok
i'll just ans it ABSOLUTELY
while my heart say "no"
u don have to worry bout me seriously
ill be perfectly fyne with or without companion
as i was born to be that way
trust me..im okay with anything :')

2010-07-17T22:25:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY SAYANG!!
HOPE YOU LYKE THE PRESENT I GAVE YOU

soo today went to love birthday party alone
many things happen..mostly happy
yet some sadness for me
don't wish to elaborate more bout it

after that around 6
met mom n dad den bussed to Sembawang Shopping mall
im suddenly so happy that i own B2st poster!!
haha..thats made my day!
den bussed home...
well now im so sleepy

SAYONARA

2010-07-14T19:59:00.003+08:00

hihi..
my day today was fucked up!
NBCB..oral sux ttm..
i screwed up...
lyke fucked sia..
den nemind...i still have my laughter..
i know i shouldnt have feel this way but
wads ur motive sia...showing off bout hym..
lyke i will feel some sort of jealousy??
lyke plz..im hys ex soo? yeah EX
u add me kay fyne i accepted ur request.
den wad purpose sent me a wink?
so i would view ur profile and saw ur latest pics?
fyne if that ur motive then yeah i fall for it
how stupid am i
OMG! ur older den me...lyke come on!
lyke who care sia...if u still love hym den go ahead la..
its his decision to be with who..and ITS OBVIOUSLY NOT! WITH ME
err...u making my mood worsen..KNNBCCB
fucked sia... CB

2010-07-13T19:16:00.004+08:00

hihi..
didnt blog already..haha
hmm i wanna talk yesterday at school
colton being so horny OMG
SS have never been fun for me but yesterday was a blast..
lyke come on Martin and i are just close frenz not more plz..
=)

my cough are getting worse..OMG
and im getting weaker
today school was kinda bored for me
but after school was happening..
met love for a while ony =(..mishyou
den walk to pasir ris park wif tyty n feela..
not long later aida ,nana and her boyfy came..
my stomach still aching after a long period of laughing..
we all know wad happen...hehe..
taxi home thx to nana boyfy..=)
hehe OMG lets have an outing together one day...
it will be totally kecho2 one..hehe...

photos wif nana and at nana blog.=)

SAYONARA

2010-07-11T18:14:00.002+08:00

NANA IM SOO NEED UR PIC..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYG!!!
SOWIE I CANT MAKE IT ON UR PARTY PTI TODAY
DAD WONT ALLOW =(
I JUST WISHED HERE IS THAT ALRIGHT? =)

soo yeah im here rotting at home.
my N level oral is on 14Jjuly. fudge
haizz soo fast..
ive been sneezing is it im gonna get sick
or some ppl talk bad things bout me =.="

im down!!!!!!!!

2010-07-11T11:48:00.002+08:00

i feel soo down...
my thoughts are all over the place
i cant ease my mind...
i wanna tell bt i donnoe what to tell
i wanna share but what am i gonna share about?
i need you..i miss you badly =(

2010-07-07T22:15:00.002+08:00

is it okay for me to be happy?
is it okay for me to be in love?
is it okay for me to have friends?
is it okay for him to be with me?

i don wish to hurt my love ones feelings again
or maybe should i just stay alone on my own without companion
i know it will turn out to be
no lyfe plus it will be completely boring

but
will it be okay if i give people second chances?
will it be okay if mistakes are repeated?
will i be okay if i one day someone had to leave my lyfe suddenly?
will i be ready to face all this?
will i be able to move on after that?
these questions are tough to be ans

every happiness that i was having will be bringing me sadness at the end of the day
being in love sometymes broke my heart
having frens are some not sincere
i don wish hym to be hurt by me purposely or not on purpose

im sorry if im not that good girlfriend to you

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WIFEY!
16 FINALLY AR..haha..
went to TTSH again.
den trained back to Semei to celebrate Ex-Wife Bday
taxi home 8.30pm sharp watch BEAST on channel %
I soo in love with hym GI KWANG BABY
make mee oo freaking hyper
but now i feel soo down
thinking bout the above post.haizz
this is what lyfe is huh?
full of fun yet misery
fill with laughter and also tears
whatever it is
i have to be strong even though im weak
but yet some times pretend is ony a way u can choose
ill stop my blabbering now

♥SAYONARA♥

2010-07-06T18:47:00.002+08:00

hihi
i wanna thx Aida SYGzz for the comfort she gave me on sunday nyte
i was crying freaking bad coz of something
she was making me laugh yet i laugh n cry at the same tyme
im unique lyke she say..haha
and thx to all the people that comforting me by msg n in school
really much appriciated =)
i love you guys

well..two days straight i went to the hospital
TTSH at Novena..
its far yes far..
but i wanna know if his alright or not
come on who will not be worried ryte...
i tried not to cry but the tears keep on falling down my cheek..haiz...
i don want hym to see me cry..sooo not me..
i just came back home now.. tired

And ouh N levels are around the corner..
ned buck up...
SAFIAH YOU NEED TO PAY FULL ATTENTION PLUS U NEED TO REVISE ALL SUBS
hmm let see if i can do that heee...
wish me luck people!!!

SAYONARA~

2010-07-04T16:58:00.001+08:00

i want you by my side now
miss you badly ='(

2010-07-04T09:59:00.002+08:00

hihi
im still sleepy now.
some people woke me up at 7 am..
i donnoe wad to blog about

im very the BORED right now nana
im very the BORED right now nana
I WANNA GO OUT RIGHT NOW NANA
meeting you now right now nana ~
watching you go(imishyoumuch)
really make me wanna cry (imishyoumuch)
i wish i could hug u tight(imishyoumuch)
i mish you much

haha i changed right now lyrics...ggggggggggggg
haaiiz... 17 july plz don come...
im scared..haizzz

2010-07-02T19:56:00.004+08:00

ITS FRIDAY!!!! FINALLY..
weekends and meeting love♥

school was sian..haizz...
its lyke i never anything during malay -.-"
but nemind SYGzz still brighten up my day
soo skip
after school wen to EPM to eat while waiting for love♥ to come
met hym outside EP den proceed to eat~
after that bussed to Pasir Ris and slack at Tyty♥ crib
until 4+pm was force to go even if it still raining
after half and hour tyty went separate way
soo me n love♥ proceed to WSM to meet my scandal
blah3 trained home with them..
but i the best thing of all
hang out with ♥ was a blast!
lets meet up wen both of us free.
bie lets walk in the rain again...
it make me calm after a stressing day =)

istillhavenotbuyurpresent =(

~SAYONARA♥

2010-07-01T20:52:00.002+08:00

OMGG!!!
IM SOO IN LOVE WITH HYM EVER SINCE I LISTEN TO ALL HIS SONGS
bie don be jealous if u reading this..
GOSH I WISH I COULD JUST SEE OR MAYBE HUG HYM..OMG
DREAM COME TRUE!!
kay i should stop babbling bout this
its all becoz i miss hys flight from korea to spore
its on the 23rd..im such an outdated ppl..='(
seriously feel lyke crying..fudge!
haiz..hopefully B2st will come to spore again
soo i could see my belove ki kwang ♥

school was okay...fun as usual
but today no math bored..
ouh yeah tmr FRIDAY!!!
FINALLY meeting bby♥ tmr...
hehe..tata for now!

♥SAYONARA♥

2010-06-30T20:41:00.003+08:00

hihi
finally i can focus on school work...
im happy that im now soo into all subs...
and it was the first tyme i can do chem..hehe
well im bored actually..
school been great..
sab martin and amelia keep on making me laugh
and ouh SYGzz and SHAMELESS too...i soo glad to have them part of my lyfe
im bless to have somebody by my side now..
hope everything will wen smoothly(26♥)..insyaallah

CANT WAIT FRIDAY!!!

2010-06-28T19:45:00.001+08:00

hi im some how soo down now
was happy lyke hell in school after some thing came up
i was planning to do alot of things
homework,freaking DNT and all
but mood seem soo not into all stuff...
haizz...
shall stop now..

2010-06-24T13:59:00.003+08:00

hihi..rotting here

IGNORE MY FACE N HAIR PLZZ

yesterday out wif Tyty♥ n Naz♥ was awesome
love them...♥♥
since i was sooo into going to the beach they both company me there
of coz usual place paris ris beach...hehe
reached there and it was cloudy thx to Naz♥ singing =)
while searching for place to relex it started to rain
luckily we found shelter b4 it rain heavily hehe
damn cold..we were lyke shivering..
i pity Tyty♥ for that since she sat where the winds blowing directly=)
most of all i had fun wif them..
wen the rain stop i went to sit by the sea..
it was damn peaceful..
den came a companion one after another♥ =)
how sweet of them..hehe
play cards i kept on loosing.
got fed up hmm..=)
at about 5+pm had to go home
trained wif Naz♥ and took pics wif hym ♥
some wif hym since i have ony one..haizz...
need get the pics wif tyty♥ too

~SAYONARA~

2010-06-22T21:17:00.002+08:00

i didnt know wad my feelings are ryte now..
knowing u are great...i don wish to feel this way again
but u made me feel it again thx!
im confused i want yet i don want to
im scared of getting hurt btw it still to early =)
plz be patient... =)
and also my N's are around the corner..
i need to focus =)

SAYONARA~

2010-06-22T12:24:00.003+08:00

hihi
today mark the 1st month i cut my hair.. =(
but its okay..still growwing weee~

kay start talking bout sunday
FATHER'S DAY!!
i decided to buy dad's bday present
coz his jeans are all dead
soo yeah im good y'know
ahha bought for hym 2 Lee jean super ex
but its nice..and also dad's fav brand =)
thats his advance presents
ouh the place at penin
and i also bought 1 shirt for me..hehe
den bussed to geylang to eat
b4 eat we watched kuda kepang and meet up wif
tyty nana feela n one more girl
after eating wen to JOO CHAT COMPLEX
and i bought Apit cd
lyke finally.he soo cute
i wanna meet hym real lyfe..
anyone know hym?? hmmm
then taxi home

since dad took two days off
on monday which is yesterday
dad wanna breakfast at airport
so search lyke wad found it then eat
trained to vivo and watch movie
i watch Prince Of Persia again
haha..cool huh...den we off home...

SAAYONARA~

2010-06-19T15:11:00.004+08:00

hihi
i sooo HAPPY...not

feelings all mixed upjust lyke the pic above

haiz....

im not the type of person who love to share probs
i love keeping it to myselfs
even if it does hurt me alot
but if i smile and show some happiness
people surround me didnt know im hurt
im not the type that seek attention
im just love the way i am now and then
i am me
no one else
i dislike having enemies
but some just really wanna become one
i just wanna be happy but it always turn out to be the
opposite
y cant i just have my lyfe of my own ways??
no hurtz no sadness full of happy surprises
and a companion of lyfe

haizz its lyfe anyway have to live it :')

2010-06-18T23:14:00.002+08:00

hihi
i didnt do anything today
but i gonna post bout yesterday!

it was a blast to go out wif tyty tytot once in a while
soo meet up in train den trained to toa payo
meet up wif her frens
and im soo shy wif them
after knowing them,they are not bad at all
hillarious! keep on making me laugh..
total there were six of us...
me tyty naz shah and other two guys =)
after meetin them at tao payo we trained to dhoby gaut
sowie i thing my spelling sux
spent tyme talking and all
den bussed to woodland meeting another group of tyty frens..
at 9pm sharp headed home by train
hope to hang out wif them again and this tyme will be with NANA AKHENO

SAYONARA

2010-06-15T23:00:00.002+08:00

being awake by phone calls from FLAME
he such a NICE guy u know!!! err
woke me up in the morning
soo we met up in the end
he came all the way from WOODLAND to BEDOK
with one of his fren Irfan
company him eat then we slack at my void deck
brought down my guitar then we sing song sad song..
b4 that i did invite aida along since he want her to join..
den at about 4pm we went our separate ways
the i went out wif mom to hospital
to visit my uncle..
met some unwanted faces but i just ignore then...
feel lyke screaming but nahh i just sat one corner doing my own things
so now im freakingly upset
i wanted to buy something very ex for dad
but mom just told hym bout it
i was lyke THX AR..totally pissed errr
now the secret reveal..lyke fudge!
haizz... feel lyke crying now

SAYONARA~

2010-06-14T22:43:00.002+08:00

it seem that my connection was sux ttm
sooo i cant continue watching digimon adventure 02
so i decided to blog..
i've been getting good at bowling
nearly get 200 score by just 1 point.haizz
so I'm bored now!

so basically my feeling all mix up..
been so lonely for so long
yet I'm OK with it
guess I'm already used to it..
I'm tired of finding
it never end
the hurts keep on causing me
to have second thought about it
can one guy just proof that all my thinking are all wrong??
ill have to be stubborn headed from now on
cox it takes tyme to proof that all my thoughts are wrong ;)

2010-06-13T23:02:00.002+08:00

hihi
didnt post yesterday...
got alot in my mind just now but it seem to be gone now..hmmm
seems lyke this june holz was just went out wif fam to me
have not even wen out with frens yet..wad a bummer
i need fresh air but i don wish to meet certain ppl at the moment..
its either ill get frust wif them or my mood just gone
ouhk..soo hmm digimon advanture 2 was no soo bad..
i left with another 25 episodeand after that ill be re watching maid sama
i need more fun romantic n adventure anime.. soo any ideas??
well i guess ill have to come to an end for this post

~SAYONARA~

2010-06-11T23:16:00.002+08:00

DIGIMON SEASON 1 ROCKZZ

even though its a bit outdated but it still fun 2 watched
let me introduse them to you
since i cant find the pics seperately
i guess i have to tell by describing

1st : Tai the guy wif goggles partner with Agumon yellow colour monster
2nd : Matt the guy wif cool hairstyle partner with Gabumon blue n white fur coat
3rd : Sora the girl wif yellow shirt partner wif Biyomon the pink bird
4th : Joe the guy wif specs partner wif Gomomon seal type
5th: Mimi the girl wif pink hat partner wif Palmon green monster
6th : Izzi the guy in orange partner wif Tentemon red bettle
7th : T.K the boy in green partner wif Patamon orange white monster
8th : Kori the girl with whistle partner wif Gatomon the kitty kat

soo yeah Kori was the last person joined the group..
she was Tai lil sis..kind n care for others.
T.K was Matt lil bro..
soo the rest of the team frens in summer camp..
its fun to watch..soo watch it aite..
the people i lyke were Tai Matt Sora n Kori
the digimon of coz i lyke the kitty kat Gotomon

SAYONARA~

2010-06-10T22:40:00.002+08:00

yesterday i watched Prince Of Persia (FOC)

and today watched movie The A-Team wif mom
the movie was hilarious!! can stop laughing watching it
the actions are all fantastic..ill rate it 10/10 =)
tot of buying dress but all of em are too short
or maybe im too tall?? errr
nemind should find some dress soon..
im bored now..Any outing??
haiyaa...

SAYONARA!~

2010-06-09T16:32:00.002+08:00

freaking bored now!
didnt get enough sleep due to otp wif STUPID FLAME♥
ouh he ton for 3 days i guess an he also said he stinks..haha
actually he is..blueckzzz
from 12am till 2am otp den have to put down for a while
he gave me missed call 11 tymes but i was aslp
msg type "sowie" only then send...im bad
woke up at 6am check hp saw the miss calls den call hym back
after half an hour he call me n ask me to call hym back
den tok till 7am.. soo i continue slping till 10am+ (pig)
thx to that i having headache until now -.-"
im tired plus bored now but cant zzzzz

phone been soo quiet IM DEAD BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ill update again if theres anything interesting =)♥

SAYONARA~♥

2010-06-08T23:15:00.002+08:00

for some reason i kinda miss playing bowling with Suriani =(
ntg much doing today did went out
wif mom to geylang
hmm now stuck here blogging
i should start studying by now
bu it seem computer is kinda more important
haha SAYONARA~

if u were given a choice
to choose either archery or learning japanese language
(which is both ur fav)
which want will u choose??

2010-06-07T23:29:00.002+08:00

hihi
im done watching both CLANNAD N CLANNAD AFTER STORY
touching made me cry..
soo basically today wen to sch do my DNT
den off meeting TYTY TYTOD(name act cute xp)
play card with her and laugh none stop till we went separate ways.
mish her damn much...
haha should hangout with her again sometymes and also the other =)
next tyme we should take alot of pics ya..haha
thats all for today..ntg much
SAYONARA~ OYASUMI~

2010-06-05T23:30:00.002+08:00

ask nafisah about going gym tmr
until now theres no ans from her...hmm..

im having this nightmare which frighten me for lyfe..
err...it was an old women gave me a ring
on that ring lives a women
it was scary i don wish to type it all here

so today wen to aunt's house
took ride on bicycle wif couzins..
cycle from the house to park nearby
it took about 15mins to reach therer
soo cycle till sunset and head back to the house
it was soo much fun cycling together
hope to cycle wif them again =)
playing bowling now

SAYONARA

2010-06-04T22:01:00.002+08:00

tdy mark the day as Safiah Clumsy Day
seems everything i've touch fall or hit me..err

well been playing bowling with Suriani Nia since yesterday
and its an obvious that i won the games...haha
aww i feel sad for suriani...NOT
haha...well suriani afk now
soo ill be continuing watching CLANNAD...
hehe
SAYONARA!!!

will be going to school again on monday =(